....out of marriage comes...

weddings come with alot of drama.
im skipping engagements cos
thats another whole blog by itself
here we talking the actual event and the
days preceding them...


well my niece has decided to take this giant leap
while shes just .. some young age.
i say that takes guts,
Marriage
is the
biggest
most dramatically
life changing
decision
a person makes.
i made that decision and it ended up in a D
not a bitter one or anything drastic,.
but ya im a skeptic


sadly.


but
i believe in LOVE, and even fairytales
I think you
should take the leap when you ready, really ready
mentally
geared up
like as if you were preping for a marathon.
hmmm ya.


now we all very busy planning for this big event thats
happening on the 22nd of november
and
the bridal shower thats like in two weeks
and
the braai after
and
its all alot of discussions heated arguments
pacifying conversations
and
alot of memorable moments
all in all.
we decided,
well I suggested we make the wedding invites
ourselves.
POINT OF NOTE, if anyones interested,
dont make invites by yourself
we learnt the hard way.
none the less they are done and its quitely satisfying to see the
results of your efforts.
the trial "flower arragement" arrived last week and it looked


>>>>>deep breath<<<<<<<<<<<<<


horrific!!!!
like a tombstone with an overhead bridge


I would marry again
just to have the wedding day
its the nicest feeling on earth
an entire day dedicated to you.


mines was nice
on the banks of the vaal river
surrounded by all the people
that make up my life.
alot of things went wrong that day
the lady in charge of the venue
woke up drunk and was threatening
to close the gates so we cant have the
wedding there.
than
she didnt have waiters as arranged
she took the liberty of stirring up the
drinks herself which meant an
entire bottle of kola tonic to one jug
with a few drops of spritE!!!
cocktails hmm
no serving dishes no glasses on the tables


but thats not the memory
cause from where i sat i cried happy tears


looking around i saw my cousins
rise to the moment waiters in an instant
others drove down to pick 'n pay to organise
the serving dishes and ....
the food was lip smacking good


thats my memory...
things get messed up
plans dont go as visioned
but
surrounded by people who care
everything rights itself the way it should.


im happy for my niece
she has the right kinda thinking
she knows what she wants from life
and now that shes
OFFICIALY 20days away from
the big event i feel sad


to be continued


soloist.

...it lives on ...

what makes some people stay even though they are being hurt?
and
what makes some people leave despite their being love / loved?

some seek the l.o.n.e.l.y path and forever remain searching for
they are never at p.e.a.c.e within themselves.

laying awake.
staring.
knowing this place in your mind, you've been here before,
seeking.
searching.
trying to leave this place, but,
some how
some way
you find yourself back again,
Always.

you could never give your all, or stay .t.r.u.e. and .com.mit.ted.
so long as you are not set free from that which cages your mind.

Never forgetting,
that which .tortues. your mind now
was
Once before your joy.
you live in constant .con.tra.dic.tio.n. of your own
_Memorys_

your .tears. (.fears.) hold you _Back_

your ._Soul_. will
forever remain
faithful to its lonely path, for,
despite
you calling out to the _.Heavens._ for
__FORGIVNESS__
you are not ._Brave_. enough to
__FORGIVE YOURSELF__